in 2 weeks..

in this 2 weeks,
i have break down twice.

projects burying me.
worries overwhelming me too.
when the night is dark, the feelings just become too much to handle.
during the day, i work my way through, projects,projects,projects. ideas,ideas,ideas.

on bus, think of ideas.
eat lunch, think of ideas again.
back to class, implement the ideas.
go home, continue on projects.
wake up, same whole fucking routine again.

the funny thing is, the night after i break down and cry,
the next morning i still go to school with a smile. its like yesterday night never happen before.
because the emotion is not that strong anymore? probably.

hey.joy is hardworking.joy can handle these projects okay.

just that i dunno what the fuck im doing these projects for.
like there is no target and goals. except for that piece of diploma cert.
this is not really my interest.
this is not really my passion.
neither do i know what i want.
everyday im stuck on the thoughts of "i-want-to-quit-course."
i really want to. this is not i want. but hey...

i have no courage lah.

yesyes. im very stereotype.
who iszit?


if i think it from a very positive way,
just do it. get my cert. move on.

maybe i will be a happier person.


i nearly thought im suffering from depression.
how scary.

phew.



okay. its friday again.
how should i spent my sat and sun?